Ever So Busy

I am exhausted. I worked from 7:30-10am, 11-8pm, worked out from 8:20-9pm, and now waiting for my two loads of laundry to be done just so I can go to bed so I can go to work at 8am...

The only exciting thing is that tomorrow I get my car all looked at (just to make sure everything is dandy) and I get to take it where I want to take it instead of that stupid car care center place that was down right rude over the phone. Tomorrow should prove to be an interesting day being shuttled to where I need to be while my car is checked out. I haven't quite decided if I want to work, or go workout or something of that sort. I do have my friend's car as well, so that makes it convenient if I want to go to the Y or run errands or something. I will probably end up at the Y but then probably head into work because if I don't work I often feel unproductive and lazy..plus it is money.

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So the topic of today is BUSY. I've mentioned over and over again how busy I am with working two jobs (which amount to a total of 60 hours per week), working out 5-7 days a week, hanging out with friends, volunteering, playing soccer, and oh yeah having a boyfriend/being in a relationship. How the heck am I doing this and keeping sane? I am really not sure to be honest with you but the having a boyfriend/being in a relationship part is getting affected I would say the most. I realize how busy I am, but I didn't realize how hard it was going to be to work with someone else's schedule/spontaneous plan making/life. This seems to be the on-going frustrating topic recently between the guy and I.

I wish it wasn't so frustrating, and I 100% realize that this conversation should be more in person than anything else because I think things get taken the wrong way. We talked about it today and tonight, and I don't feel like we've made too much progress and we end up just getting frustrated rather than go in a positive direction. I wouldn't really call this arguing but it's not the easiest thing to figure out or talk about. I also realize that I have to be happy with the time that I spend with him, rather than continuously focus on the fact that we honestly don't see each other too much except for weekends..and to me sometimes can seem rough. Please make note that I do not need to see him everyday nor do I want to see him everyday.

Our schedules are so hectic but mainly because he is more spontaneous in plans than I am. My week is pretty structured and scheduled thus it lacks spontaneity. I know what I'm doing from day to day for the most part and adjust accordingly mainly on the weekends to when I see him. He, on the other hand, has a schedule as well, but has all these random plans of hanging out with his friends...and that is perfectly fine with me, it just all happens to clash with one another and that is where we have to figure out how to compromise or somehow make things work. Then we have to figure out one-on-one time versus hanging out with friends or his roommate. I don't know, it seems like a mess right now but I know we'll get the hang of it. We have only been dating for about a month (this upcoming Sunday) so we've definitely got time. I would just rather hash this out now rather than later.

I do know that we've got figured out that we want to spend time together, we like spending time together, and this is going to take some adjusting.

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Anyway, my day went alright, it was pretty busy and by the afternoon I was getting pretty tired and worn out from taking all these calls. The only thing that was going my way was my stats were improving "awesome-ly" and I am very much on my way to cross training! I also got a 100% from QA so that also made my day too because I always get stuck with 94%...but this is me just talking work jargon and for those who don't know about QA's and the scores, I do not care to explain at this point, so I'm going to move on ha!

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OMG I am so freaking tired. GAH! This laundry needs to be done now...but no, I'm guessing abut an hour to go...ugh. Then it's definitely bed time so I can just stop muddling about the guy, and the blah topic, and hopefully we can just hash it all out at some point and move away from it because I'm getting a little too frustrated with it in that we have exhausted this topic in some ways. I just feel like we're getting stuck therefore we should actually probably talk about this in person.

I get pretty stuck on the topic until we can get it figured out or find a way to make it so we're not leaving in a huff or feeling "blah" by the end of it. I know we'll be fine, it worries me in that this is probably the biggest thing we have to adjust to with one another (though I am sure we will find plenty of other things we will have to hash out).

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"History balances the frustration of 'how far we have to go' with the satisfaction of 'how far we have come.' It teaches us tolerance for the human shortcomings and imperfections which are not uniquely of our generation, but of all time."
-Lewis F. Powell Jr.