I guess if you compare this picture from the picture I currently look like I guess you could see the slight changes that have happened to me. I have lost weight in the face, my hair is shorter, I had my nose pierced back then..but if you really knew me, you would know that the person I used to be a year ago is not the person I am today.
I don't really want this post to be a "sob story" so I'll make who I was a year ago short and simple (if that's possible). Last year, I probably looked like I had it all going for me: I was dating someone, I was excelling in school, I had a great job that I loved and still like enough, I had a lot of friends, etc. That was not how I felt on the inside. I didn't like myself, I didn't like the way I looked, I didn't understand why I was here on this earth, I was depressed and anxious, and I didn't feel good enough for anyone. I had resorted to bad habits to cope with everything I was feeling. I have this thing about me where I look like I'm the happiest person on earth but really I am just simply falling apart. Who wants to be friends with someone who can hardly keep it together? If you really knew me, you would know that is how I have lived my life on a daily basis.
Anyway that is who I was a year ago, and there are still parts that exist in my life today but I have a new outlook on life now...I know..how cliche! I think if you were to compare me from the outside I probably look the same except the whole weight thing. I would say that one of the biggest things I have had to overcome is my depression. I finally understand that I meant to be here, and that people do care about me even if that is still hard for me to believe. I have two jobs, one that I particularly love, and I am dating someone that I can't put into words how I feel about him (more to come about that later). I have other things going on besides just work, school, and dating: I play soccer once a week, I workout 5-7 days every week, I volunteer weekly, I give blood, etc. I AM JUST BUSY.
One of the best things I have done within this year was volunteer/coach/partner for Special Olympics. I can't tell you how much that organization means to me, and how much the people mean to me. It has changed my perspective on people with special needs. It has made me realize that these are people who deserve the same treatment and life we deserve. Some of them go through so much just to make it through the day, and they are more brave than I could ever be.
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