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I am sorry that this blog is going to feel a bit neglected due to the fact I have decided to write more in my private blog than this one because of the topics and people I talk about.  I feel more free in that other blog and I know exactly who is reading it.

It is nice to have this blog still because I know there are some people still reading this and this blog is mainly for updates and happy things that are going on with me. 

Like I mentioned before if I know who you are and you want to ask me for access let me know.  It is very limited to the people who are close to me and the people I trust.  Please don't feel left out of my rants or vents because those rants and vents should honestly not be in the public.  I didn't realize before how those posts could be affecting the people I'm talking about because to me it was just an outlet.  I was also a little preoccupied with the fact that my site was getting a bit more traffic than I was used to.  For me to blog is a way for me to vent and to deal with my feelings in a different way.  I do not want to occupy myself with thoughts of how many people are reading my blog.  I do admit it is a nice thought that people come to either sites to read what I have to say or because they care about me.

I know a bunch of people don't know what's going on but could you or anyone just pray for me?  Pray for peace, strength, and courage to get me through this week.  I really need it and I just want to do all the right things...I want to make progress. 

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So, in church we talked about images and masks that we all tend to put on, whenever, wherever, and the fact that instead we should all learn to just be ourselves.  God wants us to be just as we are and nothing else because He loves us no matter what.  I believe in that statement but still an interesting thought.  It makes me wonder why we can't just do that to one another?  I guess in one aspect it seems unrealistic but in another it doesn't seem all that unreasonable.  I guess I have to chew on that concept a little and maybe get back to it at some point.

The point is, is that I wear a mask on a daily basis.  Yes, I am going through some pretty rough times right now and that is the only way I think I can prevent myself from falling apart. 

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It is also in our best interest to not disclose that deep stuff about ourselves to everybody around us.

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I'm not sure if I have anything else to say about that topic right now but it was an interesting topic and I completely related to it.

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I really like church and what faith it has brought back to me.  Also when I'm there it provides me with peace and comfort that I need to learn to bring home with me.  I guess I've never seen such genuine people from church in a long time.  At church I am also part of the tech team which really has helped me socialize with people at church.  I really like being on that team because it also helps with the sense of belonging to this church. 

Old Blogs And Old Memories

So, here I am reading an old blog of someone's and reminiscing about old blogs of my own.  Anyone remember Xanga?  I remember when that was the biggest thing out there back in high school.  I remember starting up Xanga because it was the cool thing to do.  Wow, it definitely brings back some interesting memories.

I had a Xanga site for so long and from reading someone's old site makes me regret deleting all my posts.  I know at that time in my life I needed to forget some past and old memories and that is why I deleted them.  Now, I would have loved to read them and see exactly what type of person I was like then, plus I am sure my subjects were interesting and sporadic. 

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Talks about old blogs and past memories just makes me think of things like specific things that make you remember people.  Okay, let me expand.  I have dated enough people (from when I was 14/15 till now...yeah, I know) and thus I have things that triggers memories of past boyfriends.  There are songs, places, movies, words or phrases that remind me of them and our past.  Luckily, there are only a few things that brings back memories I'd rather not remember but for the most part when that happens I just think about it for a split second and move on.  An example?  I was watching Blood Diamonds (well I was half sleeping) with my boyfriend and his roommate and it reminded me of my ex David because we had watched it with his family when we first started dating. 

Memories do fade and sometimes are forgotten but lucky for me I remember a lot of things (or not?).  I don't know, although my ex's do not matter and for the most part I don't keep in contact with any of them often (like it matters as long as we are JUST friends), it is still a different feeling for me when they randomly pop up in my head.

Just makes me question whether or not you can ever really get rid of memories of someone or people that have either been involved in your life for a long time or people that meant A LOT to you.  Is it possible?  Is it possible to have a memory of someone and have it really mean nothing anymore or will they always bring back those feelings you had with that specific memory? 

I guess for me, with the old memories and people involved it depends.  It depends on if I'm harboring any internal feelings that I have not really allowed myself to get over or to feel.  If not, then for me the answer is no and those memories come and go in a heart beat with little to emotion at all I suppose. 

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Just a random blog and a random thoughts.

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And if people haven't noticed I have moved a few posts to a private blog just to be fair to the people I write about or what not.  So please ask if you want to read those posts and I will let you know if I am okay with that.

Psalm 40: 11-17

Lord, don’t hold back your tender mercies from me. Let your unfailing love and faithfulness always protect me.

For troubles surround me—
too many to count!
My sins pile up so high
I can’t see my way out.
They outnumber the hairs on my head.
I have lost all courage.

Please, Lord, rescue me!
Come quickly, Lord, and help me.

May those who try to destroy me

be humiliated and put to shame.

May those who take delight in my trouble
be turned back in disgrace.

Let them be horrified by their shame,
for they said, “Aha! We’ve got him now!”

But may all who search for you
be filled with joy and gladness in you.
May those who love your salvation
repeatedly shout, “The Lord is great!”

As for me, since I am poor and needy,
let the Lord keep me in his thoughts.
You are my helper and my savior.
O my God, do not delay.

10 Unforgettable Moments In My Life

These are in no specific order but mainly by what things I can remember in the 23 and a half years I've been alive.  They are very random and some come from injuries that I will never forget!

10.  Being adopted and moving from the Philippines to Minnesota when I was five and a half years old:  I remember it took more than a couple of days to get home, and on one of our delays we ended up in Hawaii and that is where I had my first hamburger.

9.  My first kiss:  when I was 15 years old with Derek Foster at the Taste of Minnesota.  We had been talking about our possible first kiss that entire day and I was so nervous because I had never kissed a boy before (obviously).  It finally happened at midnight where we were lying on a blanket away from his parents and the fireworks were just starting when he planted one on me.  It was a very sweet and great moment even though how my first kiss happened wasn't very original.

8.  Getting stitches on my knee from falling on a pine cone:  I was probably 12 or something and I was watching my brother wrestle around (friendly) with our friend Leah.  I was bored from swinging and so I ran over to join them in their fun.  Along the way I tripped (big surprise) and fell on a stupid pine cone that gouged itself into my leg.  I started screaming because I could see the white insides of my knee and my brother and Leah ran over to me.  Leah's mom put some hydrogen peroxide on it and bandaged it until my mom picked me up to go to the doctor.  I got five stitches that day and my knee hurt a bit.  One thing I remember is when it was just about healed I was swinging on a rope thing and my knee dragged on the ground and split it open again...wow that hurt like no other.  It got infected but eventually healed into the small scar I have on my knee now.

7.  Getting my front lip skimmed over slightly by my friend's front tire of her bike:  OK, this one is just odd I know but I was probably around six and Felicia was four and I was running after her on her bike.  I somehow got way in front of her and I fell and my head and nose slammed into the ground.  Right when I had lifted my head up her tire basically skimmed over my right lip.  I got up bleeding everywhere and I remember Felicia just screaming to go home and get help.  I ran home and my mom took one look at me and sighed and started cleaning me up.  Luckily I didn't need any stitches just a big ol' bandaid on my lip just in time to sing at my principle's goodbye concert.

6.  Getting worker's comp at Hollister:  Ha last injury one I promise!  I was arond 19 and I was building shelves that day and attempting to get one of the shelves on.  They had these stupid and tiny metal supports and I had gotten them all in place and gently put the shelf on and it was peachy for a moment.  As soon as the last corner had fallen into place all but one of the metal things had fallen off so there I was balancing the shelf with no support and trying to put those metal things back into place...I had almost gotten them back in place when the shelf started tilting to the right I tried to fix it but instead the entire weight of the shelf in the top right corner of that shelf fell into my right pointer finger.  For a moment I thought I just gotten a jammed finger but as soon as I lifted the shelf off my finger it just started bleeding a bunch.  I yelled and ran to the bathroom which at the moment was occupied by my co-worker.  Other people had seen what had happened and we were yelling for him to get out of the bathroom, me stating that "I am bleeding all over the floor..." ha ha ha!  My manager bandaged me up and sent me home.  I went over to the doctors and got five stitches.  A few complications, some splints, and 4 weeks later my finger was better.

5.  Moving to Fargo:  I moved to Fargo for college but it was the greatest thing I did for myself.  It made me feel great in respects to I was finally independent and completely on my own.  I realize that there's a lot missing to why this is an unforgettable moment but moving here changed my life completely.  I have made some awesome friends here and I have never been happier with my life and myself.  I found myself here and that is one of the things I needed to do the most.
 
4. Winning State for the first time with my soccer team:  I was around 16 and our soccer season that summer was OK.  We won some and lost some and we were in 5th place for our division and I didn't think we were going to go to State at all that year.  Playoffs had just started and my team had magically gotten ourselves together and we won all the play off games and won a 2nd place spot for State.  We played so well during those games and it was just so unbelievable.  We then played in the State play off and beat everyone and got into the Championship game.  I remember one of those games one of the other coaches from the team was complaining that we were being to rough but I think she was just upset about losing.  We were playing fair and played awesome!  The championship game was so scary and nerve-wracking but we did it.  The first half was horrible because it was 0-1 and we were losing and we were all so tense.  The other team's parents didn't help because they kept saying that we were going to lose and that we basically weren't good enough to be there.  The second half was amazing, and we ended up winning 4-1 and I can't tell you what an adrenaline rush it was and what the moment was like at all but it was AWESOME.  That was such a well played game and I will never forget how proud I was of my team that day.

3.  Meeting my best friend Emma:  I don't remember how old we first met, but we met because we were on the same soccer team, "The Golden Retrievers", and we were an alright team.  We didn't talk much but we got be OK friends.  The moment she became a good friend, and eventually to be my best friend was in band my sophmore year, her freshman year and we were by our lockers.  I took one look at her and tried to remember how I knew her and I immediately remembered from soccer!  I asked her if she remembered playing on the same team and she said yes, we both laughed, and our friendship took off from there.

2.  Getting my first car:  This happened this on Jan. 20th and this was one of the best experiences I had ever felt.  After not having a car since 2006, I finally was able to afford a car loan and a car itself.  I had worked so hard to get this far and I so badly needed a car of my very own.  I was working two jobs and I needed to be able to getto both of them and I needed to finally completely independent again.  I got a Pontiac Grand Prix 2004 and I love it so much.
   
1.  Getting snowed in with the guy I liked a bunch for two days and coming out with a boyfriend:  This happened this year right before New Year's Eve and I had liked this guy for quite some time.  We had found out that week that we were both interested in each other but we were both unsure how to proceed from that.  That Thursday night I was supposed to have my friend come over and spend the night with me but due to a big, big snow storm coming our way she had to cancel.  I let the guy know that I was free that night and if he wanted to hang out we could :)  I had also had to work all day and luckily we were going to get out early due to safety precautions.  We came up with the plan for me to head over after work and go from there.  I was really excited but nervous at the same time because I had gotten a vibe from the night before that he was really unsure what to do with us at the moment.  I was afraid that he didn't want to date or wasn't all that interested in having a girlfriend.  I had expressed some concerns as well but in all honesty I wanted to explore where we could go and yes, have him be my boyfriend.  After we were let out of work early I headed out in the blizzard-like weather, which was not fun at all but I got there slowly but surely.  So, to make the story short we all hung out:  the guy, his roommate, and I all watched House and I cuddled up to him.  We talked a bunch that night which included figuring out what we wanted to do with us, becoming official, and our first kiss.  It was a great couple of days with the guy I now call my boyfriend.  Along with being snowed in, we also got to spend New Year's Even all together so that was a blast.  We have been dating for almost two months and I couldn't be happier.  He is truly an amazing guy!

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With everything that's happened in my life or happening right now, all I can say is I am alright, I am happy with who I am and what I've become. 

Random Topic Generator

http://www.creativity-portal.com/prompts/imagination.prompt.html

This is what I will be using to create a daily-ish topic to talk about. I just thought this would spice things up besides the normal blogging I do, plus you get to learn more about me.

HAPPY BLOGGING!

Update

I realize that my rant below was really unnecessary but because this is my blog, it was good to vent it out anyway.

I pretty much just write whatever I need to write down, and it has my highs and lows which is probably the reason why when people read this may wonder if my life is ever stable?

I just want to put it out there that I am writing in this like no one is reading my blog and I tend to only write when I have a concern, a worry, when I'm down, or when something amazing happens. We are going from one end of the spectrum to another.

I am just letting the world in on my thoughts and what is affecting my life, etc.

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Also that rant has been taken care, we talked about it, it was a rough night yesterday. It is funny how you can get so angry at someone but still like them so much at the same time. At one point of the night our conversation got awful to where we were raising our voices but then all of a sudden we just started laughing and then the mood change. It had a rough ending as well but luckily we were able to end on a high point. He is a great guy, and I just need to learn to trust him, and he's right, we've both chosen each other to be the one we care most about...so I'm just going to stick with that.

The Day After

How was my Valentine's Day/evening? Well it was it was an alright day. I worked all day and my day at Wells was meh...it was long, there was some water main break whatever issues so fans and buckets and were spread out everywhere.

Anyway my evening was great after getting off of work at 8pm, the only challenging part was trying to get my boyfriend out of his mood. I understand that he had had a rough day but it's a little frustrating when all he spouts out is swear words and negativity.

Yuki Hana was great except for the fact that it took forever for them to get our food. The boyfriend was still in his mood and I was trying whatever I could to make the evening pleasant. I was getting a little upset and so I asked him if anything had made him happy that day/night? He mentioned subway and a thing here and there but what I was really hoping for was me, or looking forward to dinner or having dinner with me at that very moment but none of the above was mentioned. I was feeling a little defeated but I got over it and eventually the conversation went in a better direction and I let him know that even though he gets moody, I was still happy to just be with him. I think that made him feel better and the rest of dinner was great.

After dinner, he dropped me off at my car and I met him at home. He went shopping for breakfast tomorrow which I was so excited for because I was just happy to have a nice, laid back morning with him.

When we got home we played cribbage where I lost again during our cribbage tournament. I was getting horrible hands and I was getting frustrated. Nonetheless, even losing, I was just enjoying our time together.

Soon after, we went to bed.

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The morning with him was really great. At one point we were lying there and it was peaceful. I have never felt that feeling with someone where I feel just at peace and complete, where with them everything has seem to fall into place, and nothing else matters but just being in that moment together...

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I really enjoyed having him make breakfast for us and was of course thankful. I was just really glad to spend more quality alone time together.

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It was a really great Valentine's Day with him and I still can't get over the amazing flowers he gave me. It is going to be sad when they die but that is reality. At the end of this blog I have taken a picture of how beautiful they are really getting to be.

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Besides spending the morning-ish with him, I had also taken a half day off of both jobs. After I left his place I went home to get my work clothes and then went to workout. It was really nice for once being able to work at during the day instead of at the end of the day, especially after working a double.

Work was painful but I got through it and I am stuck being awake till my laundry is done...but I have clean clothes!

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I have honestly had a great weekend and just am enjoying life and being happy with what I've got. I am really thankful for how great things seem to be going and the people that are in my life.

Valentine's Day

I don't know why poeple are so against this holiday.  I get that it is a "Hallmark" holiday but can't people move beyond that concept, along with the fact it has to be all about couples?

Really, I think if you want to completely ignore the holiday I am okay with that (hop to it) but do people really have to rain on people's parades?

I'm sorry if people think it's dumb but I think it's unnecessary to create such drama over how this holiday sucks.

Please, it doesn't have to be about relationships...it can be about just realizing that there are people in this world that love and care about you.  I'm sure people think I'm biased because I am currently in a relationship but I think even if I didn't have a boyfriend I would be fine with the holiday.

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Remember when Valentine's Day was fun when we were kids?  I always liked picking out the cards for my class and being able to write notes to my friends and receiving candy! 

Why can't we remember it as a holiday to have fun and be silly?  When did we have to focus it on the people who get flowers and the ones who don't?  Or the people who have that "special someone" or those who don't?

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It was cool to see at work people still leaving Valentine's Day cards out with candy attached to them because it's just a nice, simple, gesture.  You never know how much that small thing could make someone's day :)

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Sure, I could see this holiday being more fun with a significant other but there is no reason to really call it a sucky holiday...but I guess that is my opinion.

Pre-Valentine's Day Stuff

Ahhhh! So my boyfriend surprised me at work with roses for Valentine's Day yesterday (yes I realize Valentine's Day is on Monday) and boy was I flustered.  He asked me if I was on a call and I was so flustered I almost thought I was still on one...ha ha!  Thankfully I had just gotten done with the call :) 

I realize they are just roses to people, but the thought, the surprise element, the guy...that's what makes it mean so much more than "just roses".  I really like them a lot, and I will have to clean my desk and figure out where they should go on Monday.

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Yesterday was awesome at work because after he had just dropped off the flowers we had a power outtage...twice, the first one lasted a minute and the power tried to go back on and then the second time it was just gone.  My boyfriend texted me that they were having power outtages all over Fargo so it wasn't just us.

My friends and I waited around and talked to one another until they finally let us all go at 3pm.  I was so excited because that was three hours I didn't have to work!  I just went home and took a nap and waited till the boyfriend got up from his nap.

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I went over to his apartment at 6 and brought his present with so that on Monday I wouldn't have to lug it around before dinner or have it sit in my car.

He was mentioning to me that his roommate and his roommate's friend wanted us to all play cribbage...on his blah traveling cribbage board.  I thought to myself..."what an opportune moment to give him his gift", and so I told him that he just had to open it then.  I really wanted us to all play on his NEW cribbage board. 

So he opened it, and loved it.  He had guessed it right all along that little stinker!  It was great to see how much he loved it and everyone was just impressed with the gift so that was an added bonus.

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Ah, so the boyfriend and I had a great night on our own yesterday.  Don't get me wrong I love hanging out with our/his friends but sometimes it is just nice to have some alone time.

We picked up food from Bdubs and rented a movie.  Just a nice, simple night with my man.  Ended up falling asleep during the movie but it was still fun.  We ended the night with cribbage and I won (for once, ha) and then headed off to bed.

A great, great, Saturday!

T.G.I.F.

And it is FRIDAY!!!!!! Today has been a busy morning, had a one-on-one, and now answering phone calls. Boy is it busy...right now we are migrating students/staff/faculty over to two separate email systems, and also getting rid of a User ID that people have become so familiar with on Campus Connection. We now also have late fees for borrowing our equipment and I am happy for that. I feel like we are making a lot of changes all at once that makes it feel like I'm way over my head, but I do realize (or hope) that in a year things will finally fall into place, and the madness we are experiencing now will fade.

Oh the joys of working in the I.T. world! As much as I am experiencing stress and lack of patience or faith, I still do love this job. It is just tough working as much as I do and trying to have a life at the same time.

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Anyway, I am excited for the weekend as always...I will be more excited after work tomorrow because than I can officially declare it the weekend for me. As always I probably look forward to the weekend because that is the time where I don't to think about either one of my jobs, I don't have to supervise anyone, etc. On the parts I call my weekend I just get to hang out with my boyfriend, our friends, and not be stressed!

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I wish I had more time to blog or more topics to blog about but I guess since I'm finally recovering from being sick and not sleeping or being sick all the time I should be able to blog more. Anyway, off to answer more phone calls!

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"Be courteous to all, but intimate with few; and let those be well-tried before you give them your confidence."
George Washington

Busy Schedule/Etc

If you click on this image, you could really see the extent of my weekly schedule. Can you believe I do this on a weekly basis?

I am starting to wear out and lose my faith and patience (in certain areas) because I am so overworked. I am holding strong onto both of those because that is what I need to do in order to do well at both of my jobs.

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So I've been sick for the past couple of days and boy oh boy has it been a riot. The whole soup/Powerade/tea/saltine crackers diet has not been a pleasant one for Monday-today. Like I've mentioned on Facebook I have already lost 6 pounds throughout this mess...not a horrible thing, but not really a good thing for my body. My body feels like it has no energy and all it wants to do is sleep, see some people, and then go back to sleep. What an exciting schedule!

Anyway, yesterday my plates came in and that made me so happy. I even got my guy to help me put them on so my car finally looked official. The only sad thing was that it no longer looked like a new car. The guy's gift came yesterday too!!!! I am such a sap, I was so excited that I opened the package and made sure everything was there that should be there and then wrapped it up. I made sure to wrap it up in non-Valentine's Day colors just because I am not too much into the colors I guess...in respects for the guy part. For me? You can wrap it in whatever and I'll open it...ha!

I am pretty excited about Valentine's Day...but only because I finally get to get the wrapped gift off of my table and give it to a well-deserving, amazing guy I know. I just wish (like I was telling him yesterday) that he could just open it right now, but I should probably be good and wait for the day that the gift was meant for.

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"I've looked around enough to know, that you're the one I want to go through time with."
Jim Croce

Why I Like Valentine's Day

Yes, Valentine's Day is a "Hallmark-made Holiday" and can make those who don't have a significant other often feel depressed or bad (not that I'm generalizing here).

I, myself, am not a big person on Valentine's Day but there are a few reasons to why I like it.

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I like it because I get to surprise my boyfriend with a gift I carefully picked out:

He gets to anticipate what I'm getting him, and I get to do all the searching for the "right" gift. The gift I picked out for him had to come all the way from Minneapolis because I couldn't find the thing I wanted to get him here. I guess I like all the preparation it takes to getting him the gift because it's something for HIM.

The card:

The card shopping...as much as I am supporting "Hallmark-made Holiday"...so what? I like trying to find the card with the right words for the guy I care about so much. This time it took me awhile because Valentine's Day is all about love, and well my guy and I haven't reached that stage yet...and well some of the options for your "special someone" are either cheesy, girly, or just down right blah!

I oddly found the card I wanted for him in the "Love" section but it took forever to search for one that actually didn't say love. Needless to say I am excited to give him this card as cheesy as that sounds.

Spending "alone" time with him:

We in our busy weeks don't get to spend a lot of "alone" time with each other. We sure see a lot of each other but during the times we could be alone we usually spend it with other people which for the most part I'm OK with but sometimes I get selfish and just want to spend time with him.

I am thoroughly excited for Monday in the fact that it will just be us. It will just be nice to have no distractions which were mainly other friends, and to just be in the moment.

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As much as I would love to say I'm the girl that doesn't really care about Valentine's Day, I do, because I like it because I get to show him how much he means to me even if that includes a gift and a card. So what if I am supporting this holiday? I like this holiday because I am a sap and I doing things for him.

Day Thirty: A Photo You Find Beautiful

This one is kind of a tough one to pick a picture for and I think this is a crummy way to end the 30 Day Challenge.

I do find the picture I posted beautiful though, but in general I find nature to be beautiful. The picture above is from where the country I was born, the Philippines. The location is Tubbataha Reef Marine Park, Philippines.

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Reflection on the 30 Day Challenge:

It has been quite the journey to start and complete this challenge. I initially took on this challenge just so I could start blogging again, and I thought it would also help get me blogging on a daily basis or at least more consistently. I think this challenge blew those expectations out of the water. I am hoping that without this challenge I will still blog consistently but I think that won't be a problem. Blogging has helped me release some of my anxieties and "write" them down and be more rational about my thoughts...especially when they affect other people. I think it also has given an insight to the people closest to me (along with just other/random people) about what is really going on in my head.

I used to journal all the time when I was growing up to help. I think I went through 3-5 journals and back then that was my way of releasing anxieties as well.

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I really appreciate everyone reading my blog. I didn't really think anyone would want to read what I have to say just because when I blog I do not "write" to an audience, I just "write" down what's on my mind or the what the challenge is for that day. It still surprises me to how many actually read this on a daily basis but that's great, I hope you like what you're reading.

Day Twenty-Nine: A Photo Of Your Favorite Person From History

Why Hello There!

This day has just been a generally awesome day. I'm not sure what it is and it may be due to the high intake of tea I've had today but whatever the reason is, I'm just glad to be happy...I deserve it.

I think part of the happiness comes from the fact that the weather is amazing outside. It was so wonderful and yet so sad to see that it's not going to stay around.

It is funny to hear people from Texas talk about how bad they were snowed in when in reality we are only talking about 2 inches. Heh, they should come visit FARGO! Oh well, good ol' Texans :)

Day Twenty-Eight: A Photo Of Something/Somebody That Made Your Day

Thank you Friday for being pay day :) I really needed it after taking out a couple thousand for my car. So here's to being paid and money!




Here's to co-workers! They always brighten my day especially when I work a 12 hour day. They are fun to be around and good company to talk to.

Day Twenty-Seven: A Photo Of Something You Are looking Forward To

I am looking forward to summer. I am looking forward to walks and runs in the park. Summer is just nice because I get to spend more time outdoors and enjoy the sun (whenever it comes out, this is Fargo..you know, ha!).

The unfortunate thing is that I will probably still be working 50-60 hour weeks so I still won't see the outside very much since the majority of my work day is from 8a-10, 11-8pm, blah! At least I will see it somewhat on the weekends and on my "day" off during the week after 5:30pm :)

I am excited for summer, but I think I'm just excited for the future in general. I'm really happy where I'm at in life right now and I can just see it getting better from here. The future doesn't look all that scary and even though I don't know what's to come, I feel like I don't have so much on my plate anymore.

Last summer was rough, I was working overnights, in a tough roommate situation, and just not happy. I was working on working through my depression and anxiety, along with making some serious changes to my life. I started working out a lot, lost a lot of weight (we all know this), did some job searching, and figured out what I wanted to do with the fall.

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I just can't believe it's already February already. Where has the time gone? I can't believe how much has changed since last summer. I feel like I'm a completely different person which is amazing. I remember how sad I was feeling, and how nervous I was for everything!!

Day Twenty-Six: A Photo Of Your Favorite Subject In School

Oh yeah, I was the girl that loved, I mean loved P.E. class.




And I was also the girl that was really good at math and enjoyed calculus.



Then, I was also that girl that had her nose stuffed in books because she loved reading too. English and writing papers, I liked a whole lot too.

Day Twenty-Five: A Photo That Inspires You

This could happen.