So, here I am reading an old blog of someone's and reminiscing about old blogs of my own. Anyone remember Xanga? I remember when that was the biggest thing out there back in high school. I remember starting up Xanga because it was the cool thing to do. Wow, it definitely brings back some interesting memories.
I had a Xanga site for so long and from reading someone's old site makes me regret deleting all my posts. I know at that time in my life I needed to forget some past and old memories and that is why I deleted them. Now, I would have loved to read them and see exactly what type of person I was like then, plus I am sure my subjects were interesting and sporadic.
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Talks about old blogs and past memories just makes me think of things like specific things that make you remember people. Okay, let me expand. I have dated enough people (from when I was 14/15 till now...yeah, I know) and thus I have things that triggers memories of past boyfriends. There are songs, places, movies, words or phrases that remind me of them and our past. Luckily, there are only a few things that brings back memories I'd rather not remember but for the most part when that happens I just think about it for a split second and move on. An example? I was watching Blood Diamonds (well I was half sleeping) with my boyfriend and his roommate and it reminded me of my ex David because we had watched it with his family when we first started dating.
Memories do fade and sometimes are forgotten but lucky for me I remember a lot of things (or not?). I don't know, although my ex's do not matter and for the most part I don't keep in contact with any of them often (like it matters as long as we are JUST friends), it is still a different feeling for me when they randomly pop up in my head.
Just makes me question whether or not you can ever really get rid of memories of someone or people that have either been involved in your life for a long time or people that meant A LOT to you. Is it possible? Is it possible to have a memory of someone and have it really mean nothing anymore or will they always bring back those feelings you had with that specific memory?
I guess for me, with the old memories and people involved it depends. It depends on if I'm harboring any internal feelings that I have not really allowed myself to get over or to feel. If not, then for me the answer is no and those memories come and go in a heart beat with little to emotion at all I suppose.
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Just a random blog and a random thoughts.
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And if people haven't noticed I have moved a few posts to a private blog just to be fair to the people I write about or what not. So please ask if you want to read those posts and I will let you know if I am okay with that.
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